Monday, April 29, 2013

The Fruits of the Spirit: Faithfulness

Faithfulness, is really hard. I love that people can have faith in me to be there for them whenever they need me. I love people knowing that I am on their side that they can count on me. That they know my friendship my love my loyalty is not changing.


Pistis – faithfulness.
Definition – Loyalty. Courage. To be principle-driven, committed, utterly reliable. True to one’s word.
Opposite – Opportunist. Fair-weather friend.
Counterfeit – Love without truth. Being loyal when you should be willing to confront or challenge.


As much as I love being faithful to others I have a hard time trusting people to be faithful to me. I just have a hard time with it. To many times I have see people tell me one thing and do something different. To many times have I lost faith in those around me. But you know that's what happens when you put you faith in sinful people. They will always disappoint you. Always!

For great is your love, higher than the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Psalm 108:4 

 For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. Psalm 33:4

 I will sing of the LORD's great love forever; with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations. Psalm 89:1 

Christ Is the only thing that remains faithful to us. He will never give up on us. He will never leave us. He will never forsake us. No matter how hard life gets, no matter how good life gets, no matter how far we run away, he is faithful.

I needed this today more than ever. I so disparately needed to know that someone wanted to be faithful to me. Me a no good worthless sinner. I needed to know that there is someone who wont give up on me.

I really need prayer tonight. Ill be praying for you. You are loved by a faithful King.  


Sunday, April 28, 2013

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 & the Office

I have been wanting to do a post on the Office for a long time now. The Office has to be my favorite TV show of all time. Its got everything you want in a show. Its funny yet serious, it has great characters and great plots. It also has so many amazing quotes that I use every day. Every episode is good you never leave disappointed (that's what she said!). Sorry I had to through that one in. The show is great and if for some crazy reason you've never watched it I highly suggest you do so. Its just fantastic.




As great as all of that is the best part of the Office is the relationship between Jim Halpert and Pam Beesly. For nine seasons I have watched this relationship grow. It stared as just a guy who had a crush on the engaged receptionist. All he did was try to be her best friend, he talked to her, he listened to her, he cared about her. He was always there for her when she needed someone to talk to. " I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl, who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing that I've ever had to do, which was just to... wait".

I waited for three seasons for Jim to tell Pam that he loved her. I waited  four seasons for Jim and Pam to finally date each other. I waited six season for them to get married. I saw them through the good time and the bad, through the flirting and the prank polling, to special moments and the disappointing moments. Iv seen Jim put everything on the line and get nothing and it seems as he will never get the girl of his dreams. Iv seen Pam lose all hope and realize that she might never get the chance to be with the her best friend.

And now after we see all of the pain and joy withing their relationship we hit season nine. We see their greatest challenge yet. We see that love and marriage, no matter how perfect, still has hard times. I love the Office, I love Pam and Jim's relationship, and seeing Jim and Pam's relationship go through such a hard time was really hard for me. For awhile it looked like they might not make it.



But as always, when things got bad, when hope seemed lost, they didn't give up on each other. This last episode it looked like it was over for them. As Jim is about to leave for Philadelphia Pam runs out to give him his umbrella. He hugs her but she doesn't hug him back. He hold her tighter as if bagging her to love him. Then they show a clip from the wedding where the pastor is  quoting 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.

The Office is great, but its just a show, its not real. Pam eventually hugs Jim back and all is good and it looks as if there problems are behind them. As unreal as this show is, its still a good reminder of what love is. Pam and Jim never gave up on each other. Like wise Christ never gives up on us, no matter how far away we are or how hopeless things seem, he will never give up on us. The bible tells us that husbands should love their wives as Christ loves the church. He gives us the definition of how to love. Its not easy that is for sure. Love is not easy, its really hard. But If you truly love someone or something you wont give up. You will be like Pam and Jim and work though the hard times. You will be like Christ and Love when love is the last thing that person deserves.

I know its just a show. But love is love. It might not be what TV tells me it is. But you know what, its better. Love is worth all the emotions that go with it. Love is worth the joy and its worth the pain. Because love is the reason Christ created us and died for us. Love is what hold my relationship with Christ together. Love hold all thing together.

Love sucks, but its worth it, and its worth fighting for.


You are in my prayers. keep me in yours. you are LOVED!


Friday, April 26, 2013

Fruits of the Spirit: Kindness & Goodness

So here is my second post of the day. This post is going to continue my posts on the fruit of the spirit. Tonight will be about kindness and goodness. Both kind of the similar ideas, both have amazing effect for Christians and through Christians.

As Christians we need to love others, that's what we are called to do. We do this though kindness and goodness. Christ showed these things like no one else has ever done on this earth. We need to fallow in his footsteps.


Chrestotes – kindness
Definition – Practical kindness with vulnerability out of deep inner security.
Opposite – Envy. Unable to rejoice other’s joy.
Counterfeit – Manipulative good deeds. “Right hand knowing what left hand is doing.” Self-congratulation and self-righteousness.
Agathosune – goodness. (integrity)
Definition – Honesty, transparency. Being the same in one situation as another.
Opposite – Phoniness; hypocrisy.
Counterfeit – Truth without love. “Getting it off the chest” for your sake.

Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. (Ephesians 4:32)
“I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”—but not everything is constructive. No one should seek their own good, but the good of others. (1 Corinthians 10:23-24)

When thinking about kindness and goodness I thought of one person. This person will remain nameless and that probably how they would like it. This woman of God that I know shows more love, kindness, goodness, helpfulness than any other person I have ever met. She is always helping people. She works at her church for the children's  ministry, she is a mother, she helps out at her children's school with EVERYTHING they put on. She is literally apart of every thing that her church and her daughters school puts on. I had the chance for the past few month to get to know her and see her sweet heart at work. She has been a real inspiration and encouragement  to me in my faith. She does all of this not for her own glory but for the Lords. She loves others because she loves the Lord. She sacrifices because she as been given life though Christ sacrifice. 

Friends look around, look for people that you know that show these amazing qualities. Observer them and then fallow in there ways. Look at Christ and see the kindness and goodness that he showed to people. Kindness could mean lots of things. Kindness with words, actions, and thoughts. Goodness is more of how people see you though those things. Be like this awesome woman of God, be like Christ. Go out help, serve, give, love. Do onto others as you would want them to do to you, and then some. 

This is a new week go out and be a difference, love other and serve them. Be like Christ. Be a light to others. 

Friends you are in my prayers. Keep me in yours. You are loved. 


Prayer IV

I have so much I want to write today. Ill probably have more than one post today, so keep your eyes open for any new posts. I need to write a post on kindness and goodness for my fruits of the spirit post but I just cant right now. I just feel like I need to pray. So here is a short prayer for my morning.

My father, I am so worn. I'm worn before the day has even started. I go to bed worn and I wake up worn. All day long my heart and my mind wonder. I seek to change the past, I seek to change my future. Knowing that no matter what say or do in my head I can do nothing to control of change my life. I am so worn. I am so week. Only you give me peace.

I cry out to you to give me strength. I cry out to you to give me peace. I need you, I long for you. I have found fleeting joy in this world but only you can truly satisfy me. I'm trying so hard to please you. I'm trying so hard to be a man after your own heart.

Lord I am stuck. I want to fallow you. The changes that you have put in my life are so evident so true. But to others it looks like a show. Oh Lord, give me peace. How awesome have your works been in my this past month. How awesome is your love. I pray for patients Lord. Give me strength to keep working hard in your name. Let the doubter of your work in me see that the fruit in my life is not fleeting but true, and pure. Let your work in me shine like a light to all Lord.

I ask for your strength and love. Show me your ways. Open up the hearts and eyes of those who doubt me. Let them see you in me. Give me strength to face the day. Amen!


Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Fruits of the Spirit: Peace

Today I will talk about peace for most of the post. But I will end with an awesome time in prayer that I had today, why? because today has just been one of those days that I felt so down yet so amazed with Gods love for me.
When I first though of peace I honestly didnt know what to think. I really didnt know what peace meant in the eyes of Christ. All I could think of was peace that ends war. I guess God could give me peace in in hard times. But that takes time and I thought that everyone eventually finds peace after hardship. So what is peace?


 Irene – peace
Definition – Confidence and rest in the wisdom and sovereignty of God more than your own.
Opposite – Anxiety and worry
Counterfeit – Indifference, apathy, not caring about something. “I don’t care.”


Well peace is the Lord. Its my confidence in him. Its my knowledge that no matter what the world puts in front of me, good or bad, Christ is with me and loving me. Peace is knowing that the Lord is all I need in all situations. Peace is being comforted in my hope in Him and His plan for me and my life.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philipians 4:6-7)

I struggle with having peace in the Lord all the time. I always get worried about what may or may not happen. Im sure this hurts me because I tend to not put all of my faith fully in the the Lord and his plan. I dont have peace. Im always expecting another fight or conflict.

The fact is this I need to have peace in the Lord. I need to understand that life is hard and it will suck sometimes. I will always be at war with this world and my flesh. But has week as I may be, as defeated as I may look, Christ gives me strength and he gives me peace.


God is peace. He is love. He is always there for us.

Today was a day that I really needed peace. Today for some reason was really hard. It was completely different than other hard days recently. Everything was just fine for most of the day. But all of a sudden I just felt this burden on my heart, this pain that I couldn't shake. I needed to pray, so I did. It was AWESOME!! the best time in prayer I have ever had. The Lord just destroyed my heart with love and peace. All I could do was just fall on my knees in prayer and cry out the Lord. It was just amazing time with my creator.

So my friends, know that peace is only given by the Lord. His peace is more than enough. His peace surpasses all of our understanding. He is so so good! Have peace my friends. Find peace in the the Lord.

You are in my prayers. Keep my in yours. You are loved!









Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Fruits of the Spirit: Joy

Wow...Its been way to long since my last post. I have wanted to post something ever day for the last few days but just haven't had the time to do so. So back to the fruits of the spirit.

Chara – joy


Definition – Delight in God and his salvation for sheer beauty and worth of who he is.
Opposite – Hopelessness, despair.
Counterfeit – Elation that comes with blessings not the Blesser! Mood swings based on circumstances.


Today I will be talking about Joy. If you asked me what Joy was seven months ago I could have told you without any hesitation a couple dozen things that brought me joy.  If you asked me a few weeks ago what I found joy in, i would probably tell you nothing and that I would never find joy again. Well, obviously that's crazy of me to say and to think but that's what happens when you put happiness and joy in earthly things and not in Christ.

Psalms 5:11-12 But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them ever sing for joy, and spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may exult in you. For you bless the righteous, O LORD; you cover him with favor as with a shield.


Se joy, is the delight in God and his beauty, love, and salvation for us. Joy is to delight in Gods character. Joy is finding that no matter what you do, say, or think, Christ will always fill you up. He will always bring you peace, love, and happiness. Maybe not happiness through earthly things but through himself.


Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.



I see all of this and think to my self, how could I not have joy in the Lord? How could I ever not be satisfied with the love of the Lord and be happy and joyful in Him for what he has given to a very undeserving, unworthy, selfish man like me.

Psalm 13:5 
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.

Times are hard. It hard to find joy right now. But that's me looking at things through what the world tells me to see. As hard as this time in my life has been, I have never found more joy in Christ than I have in the last few weeks. I have never looked for Christ more and he has never given me so much joy in my life. I take joy in his perfect loving plane. I find joy being in the Word, I find joy praying, I find joy in loving others, I find joy sharing the good news with others. I find joy in giving up all I have to Christ. See as always, the world will never live up to Christ. We will never be satisfied with it. We may find joy in it for a time but eventually it will go away. Christ is joy, and He will never go away.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

So I ask you, what do you find joy in? Is the joy you think you are getting out of that more important than Christ? Do you find joy in Christ and in your relationship with Him? My friends the Lord is the true joy of our hearts. Joy is only found though Christ. Knowing that I urge you to take joy in Him. I urge you to share that joy with others.

I love this part of the song All the poor and powerless by All Sons & Daughters. we have joy now do this...

Shout it
Go on scream it from the mountains
Go on and tell it to the masses
That He is God
We will sing out
Hallelujah
And we will cry out
Hallelujah

You are in my prayers daily my friends. Let me stay in yours, I need them. Pray that I continue to seek Christ above all other things. Pray that I am a light to those around me. Pray that I continue to become a man of God. Be joyful my friends because you are Loved!






Friday, April 19, 2013

Fruits of the Spirit: Agape – love

So I was thinking the other night about the fruits of the spirit. I was wondering if I was truly living them out the way the Lord wants me to. I thought hard about it, and came to the conclusion that as well as I do most of the time in  love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control I need to do so much better. So I will regularly be posting about each of the fruits of the spirit and share my verses and thoughts about it. Hope you enjoy.

Today is Agape – love 


God is love and He wants us to love Him, and He wants us to love others. I think that I do a good job of loving others for the most part. I love my family and my friends. But do I love everyone? I haven't really ever thought about it. Do I love others like Christ loved me? Would I give my life for a random unsaved person on the street? I would hope so, but Im not sure if I would. I know that I want to give up my life (that is desires of money and worldly American possessions) to serve unsaved people in some mission field around the world. So, I guess that is love. But love is something that I should still work on. I need to show love to everyone just like Christ. I need to show love to those who don't love me.

Hear are verses about love in the Bible. They speak for themselves. They encouraged me and I hope they encourage you



"If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

8"Love never fails"

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1-7;8;13)



 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another.  By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another. (John 13:34-35)


This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.  You are my friends if you do what I command you.  No longer do I call you servants,for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. (John 15:12-15)


Let all that you do be done in love. (1 Corinthians 16:14)

This week I will work on love. I hope you do the same. Keep me in your prayers, pray that I will go to be the man of God that He has called me to be. Pray that I will love like Christ loves. I will keep you in my prayers. You are LOVED! Now love others.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Oh how He Loves Us

Today has been a very long, dreadful, and depressing day. Its been  one of those day where I just feel nothing can go my way. A day where I feel like the the lowest thing ever created. But Christ has shown me love. I was reading 1 Peter today looking for answers, looking for love, looking for hope, and I found it.

"As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious,you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.(1 Peter 2:4-5)
"But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light." (1 Peter 2:9)

I have been rejected by all man. But God has chosen me. The God of the universe the creator of the world finds me precious. After hearing that how could I care about anything else on this earth but Him. How could I let the rejection of this world hold me down when I am a precious and chosen creation of the living God of the universe.

"For this is a gracious thing, when, mindful of God, one endures sorrows while suffering unjustly. 20 For what credit is it if, when you sin and are beaten for it, you endure? But if when you do good and suffer for it you endure, this is a gracious thing in the sight of God. 21 For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps" (1 Peter 2:19-21)
My suffering is in no way close to what Christ did for me. But I know that the pain of this world, the suffering of this world is hear to give me strength. Its hear to help me trust in the Lord and endure like he did. How I love my Lord. How I seek to endure through this day.

This day may be hard and long. But I will endure because Christ suffered and endured for me. He will help me grow though my endurance. This time will pass, this pain will end. Though I may be rejected by this world I am precise in his site. Friends life is hard but Christ has a plan for us all. You are a chosen precise person to Him. He will not let you down. Love him with all your heart, because He loves you will ALL of his.

God is Love. He loves you. Keep me in your prayers my friends. You are in mine. You are SO LOVED!



Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Hot & Cold

Why is it so hard to fully love and fallow Christ? Why is it that even when we "give" our lives over to Christ we still try to sneak our sinful desires into our life like its no big deal. Why do we have this attitude that we don't need to try hard after knowing Christ. Or the attitude that We only need to try when times are good or bad.

See God wants all of us all the time. See a relationship need two or more people for it to work. Just like in a marriage if both people aren't putting all of themselves or all of there effort into the relationship it wont work. God is always doing his part of the relationship. He is always in love with us, always providing for us. The real problem is you and me. See we think we are doing enough but we really aren't. God tells us to give up our lives for him. Maybe that means literary loosing your life for him or it could also mean giving up of all that you have and all that you want for him and his glory. Giving up of you life.

We are a lukewarm people. We let ourselves get complacent with Christ and his call for us. I know I have done it and still do it. Right now he is working in me to see this problem and fix it. But there are many things in life that we think we can get away with or think we are doing okay, but we aren't we a lukewarm and think that its okay. 

This is what Francis Chan say in Crazy Love how lukewarm people look like.

They attend church fairly regularly. It is what is expected of them, what they believe "good Christians" do, so they go.

They give money to charity and to the church... as long as it doesn't impinge on their standard of living. If they have a little extra and it is easy and safe to give, they do so. after all, God loves a cheerful giver.

They tend to choose what is popular over what is right when they are in conflict. they desire to fit in both at church and outside of church; they care more about what people think of their actions than what God thinks of their heart and lives.

They don't really want to be saved from their sin: they want only to be saved from the penalty for their sin. They don't genuinely hate sin and aren't truly sorry for it; they're merely sorry because  God is going to punish them. Lukewarm people don't really believe that this new life Jesus offers is better than the old sinful one.

The are moved by stories abut people who do radical things for Christ, yet they do not act. They assume such action is for "extreme" Christians, not average ones. 

They rarely share their faith with their neighbors, coworkers, or friends. They do not want to be rejected, nor do they want make people uncomfortable by talking about private issues like religion.

They gauge their morality or "goodness" by comparing themselves to the secular world. As long as they live a better life than some really bad people they should be good.

They say they love Jesus, and He is, indeed, a part of their lives. But only a part. They give him sections of their lives. But only a part.

They love God, but they do not love Him with all their heart, soul, and strength. They would be quick to assure you that they try to love God that much, but that sort of total devotion isn't really possible for the average person; its only for pastors and missionaries and radicals.

They love other but do not seek to love others as much as themselves. Their love of others is typically focused on those who love them in return, like family, friends, and other people they know and connect with. There is little love left over for those who cannot love them back.

They will serve God and others, but there are limits to how fat they will go or how much time, money, and energy they are willing to give.

They think about life on earth much more often than eternity in heaven. Daily life is mostly focus on today's to-do list, this week's schedule, and next month's vacations. Rarely if ever, do they intently consider the life to come.

They are thankful for their luxuries and comforts, and rarely consider trying to give as much as possible to the poor.

They do whatever is necessary to keep themselves from feeling too guilty. They want to do the bare minimum, to be "good enough" without it requiring too much of them.

They are continually concerned with playing it safe; they are slaves to the god of control. This focus on safe living keeps them from sacrificing and risking for God.

They feel secure because they attend church, made a profession of faith at age twelve, were baptized, come from a Christian family, vote Republican, or live in America. But you like the Israel you are not just safe because you are apart of do those things.

They do not live by faith; their lives are structured so they never have to. They don't have to trust God if something unexpected happens they have their savings account.

They probably drink and swear less than average, but besides that, they really aren't very different from your typical unbeliever. They equate their partially sanitize lives with holiness, but they couldn't be more wrong.

I know I am guilty of all of these things. I know that I have not been the best man of God that I can be. I know that we all struggle with these lukewarm tendencies, and so does Christ, that why he gave us himself. We must seek Christ will all of our lives and with all of our heart. we must be in his word every day to fight of our sinful lukewarm tendencies. If we do this Christ will give us strength and peace in all the things that we face. We will be a people of true faith and love.

Don't be lukewarm my friends. Seek first the Kingdom of God. Your are in my prayers. Keep me in yours. You are Loved! 


Prayer III

Tonight was awesome! I had the opportunity to talk to a struggling friend about Christ and share my heart to them. Hopefully The Lord used me to encourage this friends faith. I also had a great talk with a great brother in Christ where we both left so amazed with the greatness of the Lord. It was such a blessing to talk to both friends. one where I could see the Lord working in me to bless someone else. The other was where I was encouraged and strengthened in the Lord by a brother in Christ. So I feel the need to pray.

How great is my God. Oh how I see the amazing blessing that you have provided me. How great is your works oh King of Kings. Your love is unending, your mercy has no limits. You have created me for your glory. You have known my path since the beginning of time. How amazing it is that I can be used my Lord. How great is it that my God can use a sinner to bless his kingdom.

God why have pushed you away? Why do I see your love and works yet run from you to sin? Lord save me from my desires save me from my sin. Let me look to you and your works and see your power. let me be like Isaiah and say  "Wow to me! I am ruined! for I am man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty" Let me be like Isaiah and be ruined by the glory of the Lord and his power. My God is AWESOME! Make me into a man worthy of your call Lord. Make me into a man worthy of the gifts that you have given me. Make me a man of God.

Our God Is SO great!!

You are in my prayers. Keep me in yours. You are loved!


Monday, April 15, 2013

Faith

Faith, faith, faith, God wants us to have faith! Why is it so hard to not trust in the Lord? Why is it that we think we know whats best for us? Day after day my pride gets in the way of my faith.

I must put fully all of my self and faith into my Lord. I will always let my self down. The people I love will always let me down. But Christ will never let me down! I put my faith into all of these earthly things that will never live up to God. Yet, I continue to put my faith in them. But to feel the full joy and peace of the Lord I must put all of my faith in the Lord. He is my rock and my salvation he will never be moved. So why put my faith into anything other than perfection and true love?

This was just thoughts running though my head today, thought I would share them. Ill probably write another post later, probably another prayer.   I hope you look into your own life and see what you are putting your faith in. If you see what I see in my own life, then I pray that you look to Christ and put all your faith into him.

Ill be praying fervently for you my friends. Keep me in your prayer. Remember you are love by the only one who wont let you down, the only one you can truly have faith in, Christ.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

My Prayer II

I really want to write a great  post tonight. I have so much to talk about. I could talk about some stuff I got out of reading  Crazy Love. I could talk about what I read in 1 Peter. I could talk about a Psalm I read. I could talk about all the Godly advice I have gotten this weekend from friends and family. But I feel the need to write out my prayer again. It was such a humbling experiences to share my heart with you and the Lord. I hope my prayers will give you strength and encouragement like Davids prayers in Psalms give me.

Father, every day I see you in the blessing that you provide for me. I seek you with all my heart and I find you when I most need you. When my heart feels most empty you fill it. When my sole feels lonely you comfort me. You fill me up in my time of need. You are love.

For to long I have taken advantage of your love and grace. You have done so much for me, and all I do for you is love then forget about you. How the prodigal son was longed for by his father you long for me. Like the children of Israel, I see the works of your mighty hand yet I get greedy and want more. I see the love and blessings that you provide, yet I become content with the idea that I must deserve all of the blessing you give. I some how think that I can do better or that I dont need to rely on you as much. Who am I oh God of creation? Who do I think I am to think I can save my self or live life without you?

My King! How great is my God! You give me life and you fill my heart. I will sing praises of your might works till my voice fails me.  when times are good and when times are bad I will give you praise. For you my Lord are deserving of my ALL. Don't let me forget you my Lord! Do not let me forget the gifts and blessing that you have given me.

Mold me into the man you created me to be. Hold my heart so that others may see your works with in me. If I honer you name by my works Lord don't let me get your glory. Make me a man after your own heart. Make me into a man of character, peace, love, patience, and a kind heart. Make me like you father. I am week, I am poor. Give me the strength and courage to be like you.

I pray that your mighty works are shown through a sinful man like me. I pray that in all things I do and go through that I give you the glory. I pray that people see you in me. Make me a man of God.

You are in my prayers my friends. Please keep me in yours. You are SO loved!!!

Saturday, April 13, 2013

My Prayer

Oh Lord, my King! Why do I fight you? Why do I go against you? Why does my heart long for earthly desires more than you? Why do I fail so miserably at being like you? Why am I so idolatrous, prideful, jealous, selfish, unloving, and week man? Why is it that you love me despite all of my faults?   

I am like the Israelites wondering aimlessly in the desert. I see you mighty works yet I still disappoint you. I see the blessings you give me and yet I blow them away because of my sin. Why do I have to be so far away from you? I long for you! I seek to see your face. I long to see your mighty plan for my life. I cry all day, for I know as hard as I try I will never be good enough for your grace. I cry all day because you give me grace anyways.

Lord do not hide your face from me. I seek you in my time of need. I seek you to mold me into a man after your heart. I long to serve you my King. Take my heart, take my life and do with it as you please. You are the master of my ship. Give me peace, give me grace, give me love. Humble me my Lord. I will trust in you.

My heart is in need of your prayers today. You are in my prayers my friends. You, although you don't deserve it are SO Loved!

Friday, April 12, 2013

1 Peter: Confidence, Hope, & Faithfulness In Christ (part 1)


I finished up James and now I am starting on 1 Peter. So the general theme to my upcoming posts will mostly be about what I'm learning in 1 Peter.  

Today I will be talking about what I learned from James 1:3-12. Hope it blesses you as much as it blessed me.

God is good! He loves us and he gave us hope and mercy when we did not deserve it. Which by doing so he gave us an undeserving inheritance called heaven.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God's power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. 
Peter Tells us to look at what Christ had done for us and take joy in it. Peter is also telling us that as much joy as we take in Christ when things are going good, we need to do the same thing when times are bad. Our faith will be tested and hard times may be ahead for you. But look at what God has given to you, look at what he has done for you.

 In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
How great is our faith? Do need to see? Do you need to touch? or is it by Christ love and grace has he given you predestined outcome of your faith. See it is by faith that you are saved. You did not see Christ but you must trust in him. By your faith grace is given by faith Christ is indicated to you. 

Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
10 Concerning this salvation, the prophets who prophesied about the grace that was to be yours searched and inquired carefully, 11 inquiring what person or time the Spirit of Christ in them was indicating when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the subsequent glories.
 We serve Christ so we can serve others. It has been revealed to us to be Christ like to work for the Holy Spirit so that the plans that are unknown to us will be fulfilled to bring glory to God.

12 It was revealed to them that they were serving not themselves but you, in the things that have now been announced to you through those who preached the good news to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven, things into which angels long to look.
 Friends our God is so good. How wonderful is it that he has revealed himself to such unworthy people. Take joy in his mercy take joy in his love. Hard times will always come and go but the love of the Lord is eternal.

Keep me in your prayers my friends, you are in mine. You are loved! 


Thursday, April 11, 2013

A Day in a Life

Its been a long day. I am tired and week I am so worn by life. The temptation of the evil one almost got to me. But God gave me strength, God has protected me He has saved me. He is in love with me. I will give him my everything. How GREAT IS MY GOD! I read these verse tonight and it gave me strength. I pray that it gives you strength in Christ as well.

"11 Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful.
12 But above all, my brothers, do not swear, either by heaven or by earth or by any other oath, but let your “yes” be yes and your “no” be no, so that you may not fall under condemnation." (James 5:11-12)

13 Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing praise. 14 Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. 15 And the prayer of faith will save the one who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. 16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.[b] 17 Elijah was a man with a nature like ours, and he prayed fervently that it might not rain, and for three years and six months it did not rain on the earth. 18 Then he prayed again, and heaven gave rain, and the earth bore its fruit.

19 My brothers, if anyone among you wanders from the truth and someone brings him back, 20 let him know that whoever brings back a sinner from his wandering will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins (James 5:13-20)

This just helped me today. I need to pray hard for my Kings comfort and love. I needed to pray for his wisdom. He is and awesome God!

Keep me in your prayers I need them more than ever. You will be in mine. Be a light to the world my friends. You are loved!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Talking to God part 2

I have been fascinated with prayer for the last few weeks. The other day I was encouraged through a friends blog about prayer.  I talked in an earlier post how crazy it was that we don't communicate as often as we should with our God. Now knowing that I need to always be in communication with my Lord, I need to figure out how I should communicate with the Him.

"And we can be confident that he will listen to us whenever we ask him for anything in line with is will. And if we know he is listening when we make our requests we can be sure that he will give us what we ask for. John 5:14-15

 
The bible tells us not to pray out of selfishness or sinful desires. But This can be really hard. How do you pray without a selfish desire? But God also wants us to bring our desires to him. He wants us to trust him and lean on him. But he also doesn't  want us to just give up on prayer because we cant pray without some desire.  This is something I have been struggling with lately. I have been trying so hard not to pray selfishly yet I also want to pray for big things. I don't want to just not pray because I know God will do what he wants to do. This article by Tim Keller really helped me understand prayer better. Hope it helps you too.

    

Prayer and the Gospel

Dr. Tim Keller, Version 3.0, c2007.


Principles


One of the most basic things that the gospel does is change prayer from mere petition to fellowship and the praise of his glory. Galatians 4:6-7 teaches us that when we believe the gospel, we not only become God's children legally, but we receive the Spirit in order to experience our sonship. The Spirit leads us to call out passionately to God as our tender and loving Father. The Spirit calls out 'Abba' (4:7). In the very next verse Paul refers to this experience as "knowing God" (4:8). We do not just know and believe that God is holy and loving, but we actually experience contact with his holiness and his love in personal communion with him.
No one had a deeper insight into the gospel and prayer than Jonathan Edwards. Edwards concluded the most essential difference between a Christian and a moralist is that a Christian obeys God out of the sheer delight in who he is. The gospel means that we are not obeying God to get anything but to give him pleasure because we see his worth and beauty. Therefore, the Christian is able to draw power out of contemplation of God. Without the gospel, this is impossible. We can only come and ask for things- petition. Without the gospel, we may conceive of a holy God who is intimidating and who can be approached with petitions if we are very good. Or we may conceive of a God who is mainly loving and regards all positively. To approach the first "God" is fearsome; to approach the second is no big deal. Thus without the gospel, there is no possibility of passion and delight to praise and approach God.

Pathologies


There are two fairly common distortions of prayer that arise from a lack of orientation to the gospel in our prayer lives. We touched on them above. Here is a more practical description.
1. On the one hand, our prayer can have "light without heat."
There can be long lists of things that we pray for, and long lists of Bible verses we read, and long lists of things we thank him for. Yet there is no fire. Why? If we lose focus on the glory of God in the gospel as the solution to all our problems, then we devolve into a set of "grocery list" prayers, made rather desperately. When we are done, we only feel more anxious than before. The presence of God is not sensed because God is really just being used – he is not being worshipped.
Instead, we should always remember that the first thing we need is a new perspective on our needs and problems. We should always intertwine with repentance over our unbelief and indifference to God's grace. On the one hand, we must "pray into" ourselves that the thing we are asking for is not our Savior or God or glory! But, (on the other hand) after we repent and refine our desire, we should "pray into" ourselves that God is our Father and wants to give us good things, so we can ask in confidence. Also, intertwined with our petitions should be praise and marveling that we are able to approach God, and be welcomed in Christ.
This is gospel-centered prayer, rather than anxious petitioning. Our desires are always idolatrous to some degree, and when we pray without dealing with that first, we find our prayers only make us more anxious. Instead, we should always say, in effect, "Lord, let me see your glory as I haven't before, let me be so ravished with your grace that worry and self-pity and anger and indifference melt away!" Then, when we turn to ask God for admission to grad school or healing of an illness, those issues will be put in proper perspective. We will say, "Lord, I ask for this because I think it will glorify you – so help me get it, or support me without it." If the overall focus of the prayer is on God's glory and the gospel, our individual petitions will be made with great peace and confidence.
2. On the other hand, our prayer can have "heat without light."
Unlike the "light without heat" prayer, focused on anxious personal petitions, there is a kind of prayer which is its direct opposite – "heat without light." This is prayer with lots of "fire" and emotion. It focuses on boldly claiming things in Jesus' name. A lot of military and conflict imagery is usually used. Often the prayers themselves are said (either in your head or out loud) in a very unnatural, dramatic kind of voice and language.
Now, if (as stated above) prayer focuses on the gospel and glory of God, and if by the Spirit's help, that glory becomes real to us as we contemplate it, there will be passion, and maybe strong and dramatic emotion. But "heat without light" prayer always begins with a lot of drama and feeling automatically. I think that many people who pray like that are actually reacting against the very limp kind of prayer meetings that result from anxious personal petition. But they respond by simply trying to directly inject emotion and drama into prayer.
This kind of prayer is also not gospel-centered. Just as the anxious-petitioning is often legalistic and fails to base itself on God's grace, so the bold-claiming is sometimes legalistic and fails to base itself on God's grace. There is a sense that "if I pray long and without any doubts at all then God will surely hear me." Many people believe that they must suppress all psychological doubts and work up tremendous confidence if they are to get answered.
In addition, often personal problems are treated abstractly. People may say: "Lord, I ask you to come against the strongholds of worry in my life." Or "Lord, I claim the victory over bitterness," instead of realizing that it is faith in the gospel that will heal our worry and bitterness. Ironically, this is the same thing that the "anxious petitioner" does. There is no understanding of how to "bathe" the needs and petitions in contemplating the glory of God in the gospel until the perspective on the very petition is combined with joyful yet profound repentance, e.g. "Lord, I am experiencing such fear – but you are the stronghold of my life. Magnify your name in my sight. Let your love and glory ravish me till my fear subsides. You said you will never forsake me, and it is sheer unbelief that brings me to deny it. Forgive and heal me."
So, ironically, we see that "heat without light" prayer and "light without heat" prayer both stem from the same root. They come from works-righteousness, a conviction that we can earn God's favor, and a loss of orientation with respect to our free justification and adoption.

Practice


How can we very practically move toward a gospel-centered prayer life that aims primarily at knowing God?Meditation and communion.
This essential discipline is meditation on the truth. Meditation is a "crossing" of two other disciplines: Bible study and prayer. Meditation is both yet it is not just moving one to another – it is a blending of them. Most of us first study our Bible, and then move to the prayer list, but the prayer is detached from the Bible you just studied. But meditation is praying the truth (just studied) deep into your soul till it catches "fire." By "fire" we mean – until it makes all sorts of personal connections – with YOU personally, so it shapes the thinking, it moves the feelings, and it changes the actions. Meditation is working out the truth personally.
The closest analogy to meditating on the truth is the way a person eagerly reads a love letter. You tear it open and you weigh every word. You never simply say, "I know that" but "what does this mean? What did he or shereally mean by that?" You aren't reading it quickly just for information – you want to know what lies deep in the clauses and phrases. And more important, you want the letter to sink in and form you.
Augustine saw meditation, "the soul's ascent into God," as having three parts: retentio, contemplatio, dilectio.
First, retentio means the distillation of the truths of Scripture and holding them centrally in the mind. This means study and concentration on a passage of scripture to simply understand it, so you see its thrust. "Retentio" is thus learning what a passage says. The many books on Bible study and interpretation can help us here.
Second, contemplatio, means "gazing at God through this truth." It is to pose and answer questions such as:
  • what does this tell me about God; what does it reveal about him?
  • how can I praise him for and through this?
  • how can I humble myself before him for and through this?
  • if he is really like this, what difference does this particular truth make to how I live today?
  • what wrong behavior, harmful emotions, false attitudes result in me when I forget he is like this?
  • how would my neighborhood, my family, my church, my friends be different if they saw it deeply?
  • does my life demonstrate that I am remembering and acting out of this?
  • Lord, what are you trying to tell me about you, and why do you want me to know it now, today?
Above all, the purpose of contemplatio is to move from a kind of objective analytical view of things to a personal dealing with God as he is. It is to deal with God directly, to stretch every nerve to turn this "knowing about" into knowing – to move from knowing a fact about him to actually "seeing" him with the heart – to adore, to marvel, to rest in, or to be troubled by, to be humbled by him. It is one thing to study a piece of music and another to play it. It is one thing to work on a diamond, cutting and polishing it; it is another to stand back and let it take your breath away.
Third, dilectio means delighting and relishing the God you are looking at. You begin to actually praise and confess and aspire toward him on the basis of the digested and meditated truth. If you have moved from learning to personal meditation, then, depending on your spiritual sharpness, the circumstances of your life at that time, and God's sovereign Spirit, you begin to experience him.
Sometimes it is mild, sometimes strong, and sometimes you are very dry. But whenever you are meditating ("contemplatio") and you suddenly find new ideas coming to you and flowing in, then write them down and move to direct praising and confessing and delighting. That is (as Luther would say) the "Holy Spirit preaching to you.

Remember to keep talking to Lord. Pray with a Christ glorifying mind set. You are loved!