Joyful In My God

The Lord is testing me. He is testing my heart, my mind, my soul, my faith. I don't know why, I don't understand, I'm confused and hurting. I long for a time not to long ago when I had everything I wanted, everything I "needed". I long for love, I long for happiness, I long for peace and assurance, but I get none. I feel like this time in my life isn't getting better, its not going away. I feel like the Lord isn't answering my prayer, isn't hearing the deepest cry of my heart. I long for Him to hear me and answer me. I long for this time to be taken away. I will wait and I will pray, He will, in time give me peace. Suffering produces endurance and perseverance. 

I urge you all to read the book of Habakkuk. Like Lamentations its a great reminder that God no matter what we go through and experience is still God. He is love, peace, joy, and happiness. The King of ALL. We should take joy in that and know that His love is good and our suffering is nowhere near as painful as the suffering He did for us. I have hope in my God, He is and always will be the the only sure thing in my life on this earth. I will be joyful in my God. The Lord is my portions therefor I will hope in Him.

 I heard and my heart pounded,    my lips quivered at the sound;decay crept into my bones,
    and my legs trembled.Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity
    to come on the nation invading us. Though the fig tree does not bud
    and there are no grapes on the vines,though the olive crop fails
    and the fields produce no food,though there are no sheep in the pen
    and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
    I will be joyful in God my Savior.The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,    he enables me to tread on the heights. (Habakkuk 3:16-19)

You are in my deepest prayers my friends, please keep me in yours. You are loved by a great God!!